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WHAT in person
WHERE Heavenly Grounds
WHEN 75!!

[So how do you feel about getting into the holiday spirit? Because with all that wine around from the Bingo victories someone's put a sign up outside Heavenly Grounds today advertising a ~holiday party~ There's festive decorations with mulled wine, hot toddies, spiked egg nog. You name it, it's there to get you plastered.

And I guess there's cookies and fruit cake and stuff too, but who needs food when there's drinking?]

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[he sighs, a bit defeated]

You know I'm really not.

If you were deliberately trying to needle me, at least I could be impressed by it.

And that would count for something?

I suppose it’s just as impressive that you’re naturally a pain.

Most people don't count kindness as a pain.

I’m not most people.

I know you're not.

[pauses, silent, like he's trying to pick his words but he's coming up empty]

With anyone else, I’d be trying to find the ulterior motive. The selfish reasoning. But you, Captain Rogers...

[ shakes his head ]

Your selfish choices are still born out of altruism and loyalty to those you consider yours. That’s what makes you infinitely more dangerous.

[he's still quiet for a moment, eyeing Loki critically, not refuting the point...]

How is that dangerous to you?

You’re willing to sacrifice everything.

I'll sacrifice what I have to for what's right.

[he says, not stopping the defensive tone of his voice]

For what you think is right, regardless of what is or isn’t. And you don’t care what you have to burn to do so.

Making a sacrifice doesn't mean you don't care for what you've lost—[stops, pulling in a tight breath]

—Why does that matter so much to you? This can't just be about Tony.

It’s about you and who you are, and why I don’t think you’re worth trusting.

Because you think if it came down to it I'd hurt you in order to do the right thing?

[ snorts ]

That, I don’t think you’d ever have a problem with.

Then what is it?

Thor thought he was doing the right thing when he went against the orders of Odin All-father, and stormed Jotunheim, killing many of them and near starting a new war. I thought I was in the right when I turned the Bifrost upon Jotunheim; it would have ended the war between our people for good, without ever losing another Asgardian soldier. Ultron thought he was doing the right thing in his attempt to wipe out humanity.

No damage is worse than that which happens when one always does what he thinks is right.

And what about what helps people who need it? When you're protecting those who can't protect themselves?

Is that what you were doing?

This isn't about what happened with Tony.

Again: it's about you, who you are, and what you'd do.

[you can tell it's taking all Steve's effort not to rise to that]

—I don't want to fight you.

You really do.

Have you really never regretted anything you've done before? Haven't you learned from your mistakes?