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[help_wanted]

WHAT shame
WHERE everywhere
WHEN 104

[it's cold again

that's what you get

also you have a pet shaming card affixed to your person somewhere and can't seem to shake it

it will reveal a shameful or embarrassing truth, probably regarding wronging your owner but i mean whatever that part is flexible]

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[divasterous]

Oh.

[his eyes widen in horror]

[starspangledman]

[strokes his hand through Vasily's hair, soothing]

That's why I was worried.

[divasterous]

Oh—oh, no, darling.

[he presses closer to his chest]

Never that.

[starspangledman]

I know, Vas.

[kisses the top of his head, holding him in tight]

[divasterous]

I just . . . feel like I'm using you to hide from the things that make me unhappy.

[starspangledman]

What makes it feel like hiding?

[divasterous]

Because I . . . feel better when I'm with you.

[starspangledman]

[rubs his back in a slow circle]

I don't think that's hiding.

[divasterous]

It's . . . it makes me feel like I'm running away from the things I should face. Like turning a blind eye.

[starspangledman]

You've still faced plenty of things while we're together, haven't you?

[divasterous]

Have I?

[starspangledman]

You told me your name. You told me about your past.

[divasterous]

Not . . . everything.

[starspangledman]

[rubs his back, slow]

You don't have to run from those things when you're with me. We can face them together.

[divasterous]

[. . . thunks his head gently on Steve's shoulder]

[starspangledman]

[leans in, nuzzling him]

Vas?

[divasterous]

You're so good. I want to be good enough.

[starspangledman]

You don't have to be anything for me, Vas. I love you for who you are. That's good enough for me.

[divasterous]

. . .

[bumps his nose against Steve's cheek, then catches his lips in a soft kiss]

[starspangledman]

[kisses back, quiet]

[divasterous]

[against his lips]

Do you need me?

[starspangledman]

Yeah, I need you.

[divasterous]

. . . why? How.

[starspangledman]

I love you. You hold me down here. You give me something to look forward to.

[divasterous]

[opens his mouth. then closes it again.]

Ah. We've totally already talked about this.