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[Appearing from the kitchen with a cup of wine]

I still have about four dozen left if you want one.

I didn't make that many...

Four dozen?

Give or take. I ate a few before the official count.

...I may have been a little stressed.

Ooh. My fault? Or some lesser, non-big-brother stress source. Do I have to up my game?

[ doesn't answer, but the figurative temperature in the room just dropped twenty degrees and all the tension that had left him is back in his shoulders ]

Father's beard, Loki, take it easy.

[Tony sips his drink, not sure yet if the situation needs defusing, after all he's never seen Loki and Thor fight. He decides to give it another beat]

Edited 2017-12-14 06:35 (UTC)

[ low and dangerous, fingers white where he's gripping his book, struggling not to snap the stem of his wineglass ]

Get out.

... [straightens.]

Loki... wait. I'm sorry.

If you're here to make fun of me for more imagined slights, Thor, I don't intend to hear it. Out.

[w. with sincere weight]

I'm really not, I promise you. That's not what I meant.

I only want to start to be there for you again. In moments like this. That's why I asked Stark to help me find you.

[ throws the mug at thor's head ]

You don't even know what a moment like this is!

[ nothing spills because he's accidentally frozen the wine inside it ]

[ducks that, and startles at the ice.]

--You never gave me the chance to know!

How could I have?!

[ abruptly just--calm down and. gets up. ]

If you won't leave, then I will.

[asjdf;a reaches to grab at his wrist.]

Loki, wait. please. We have the chance now! You can talk to me about this!

Edited 2017-12-14 07:10 (UTC)

What do you want me to say? What do you want from me?! There's nothing to say. We're not-- I'm not--

No.

[he doesn't let go???]

Loki. It's okay.

What? What, Thor? What are you saying is okay?

Anything is! Whatever you feel, whatever you are! I can't know if you don't tell me, tell me what plagues you! Tell me what you want me to do, because I promise you as your brother, I will. You need only ask it of me.

You cannot change the past. You can't change what Odin did, the lies that were told and the cage built around me! You can't prevent the laughter and whispers, the shame and insult, treason, betrayal, not when you were so often the original instigator of it all!

[ takes a breath ]

You can't stop the memories or the nightmares, nor can you hold back the knowledge I never wanted and the terror I know full well is irrational.

No, Thor. There's nothing you can do.

[shaky breath.

then he bares his teeth.]

I can change the future, and stand at your side. Odin is dead. And I am king, and you are my brother! Our whole lives are ahead of us, and I won't accept that life without you as my equal. Or any throne, without you beside it.

If you're afraid, I can at least pour you a drink, and be here.

Edited 2017-12-14 07:37 (UTC)

The people know full well where I am from and what I am under this skin--I made sure of that.

It doesn't change who you are!