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[The sun doesn't so much as rise as flick on with the sudden, glaring brightness of noon. Whatever time keeping device you have on you says its about 8:14am when this happens.

The power's back, but the time on your timekeeping device never really make sense with the position of the sun as it moves across the sky.]

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[I'm wherever you need me]

M'lady...

...They told me. Pretty much instantly.

[STEPS FORWARD AND PUTS HER NOSE ON HIS CHEST 8(]

:Oh, Stefen. I'm glad to see you back.:

[hugs her head]

I'm... glad to be back, though I didn't know at the time that I was gone.

:Of course, dear. Should I let it lie? Leave things less strange? It's a lot to wake up to...:

I truly don't think anything will at any point make this less strange.

:Ah. Yes.:

[she sighs a tiny sigh]

:...I don't think it's the best thing in the world, for reincarnation to be discussed by the living, truly. This place certainly leads to... circumstances.:

No, I can see why it's... not usually done. I'm honestly in a bit of a muddle about what to do and how to act? But all I know is how to be me. And everyone keeps saying that's all I should be.

[firmly]

:They're absolutely right to say so. Souls who come back do it start things fresh, my dear.:

Edited 2017-08-27 05:46 (UTC)

Always? Because I... I imagine I would have had to... to make it clear I needed to be in a place I could meet Vanyel again.

:Starting fresh doesn't mean avoiding old connections, not entirely. But you came to them with a fresh background and a fresh view, Stefen -- as a new person. Don't miss the chance by looking back.:

I don't want to look back but I've got a lot of questions!

:Questions about what part, exactly?:

[there's a hint of humor in her tone, a sort of "yes, i know there are five million questions about literally any aspect of this" rather than laughing at Stefen]

Where do I begin! Should I make a list? I joked to Medren that I've practically got a whole set.

:If you think that there may be one I can answer, you may start there. I can also simply listen to them without comment, or offer a sage sense of perspective. There are choices.:

[definitely amused now, playing off of his own attempt to touch on this more lightly]

Is it strange that I always used to feel defensive and protective of Tylendel's reputation? I keep thinking back with a feeling like, "Oh. Oh no."

[quieter]

:That's also how the Heraldic Circle thought of him, Stefen. So I suppose. . . at least you were in good company.:

I always thought I was so unbiased about it. Not like I'd ever met the guy.

[not refuting that concern, but]

:I don't believe that knowing that people who err, who perhaps do terrible things, are still human, is only a sign of bias. I don't know that judging those who shy away from the memory out of their own shame and fear is only bias. It's wisdom, too.:

Edited 2017-08-27 07:47 (UTC)

That's a nicer way to think about it... [sighs]

:It isn't bad that that's a part of you, Stefen. . . and I wouldn't call it a sign that you are Tylendel, either.:

[very definite.]

Edited 2017-08-27 07:54 (UTC)

It's not that I really think I "am" Tylendel, it's just...

[that seems like a good statement to wait for Stef to finish]

...I just have a lot going on in my head all at once right now. It definitely feels more like "what sort of subconscious thing caused that" than my own opinion but it was always my own opinion?

[considering that gravely]

:I think. . . the connection between past lives and your present one may be the source of your confusion. Are the buried things in your mind and heart that might be connected to a past life relics of yourself, or a stranger?

. . . may I offer those words of perspective I mentioned?:

Right, that's it exactly. A lot of things I've always had thoughts and opinions on I'm just... looking at again with a new perspective but not understanding?

I'd appreciate it.