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[starspangledman]

WHAT in person
WHERE Heavenly Grounds
WHEN 75!!

[So how do you feel about getting into the holiday spirit? Because with all that wine around from the Bingo victories someone's put a sign up outside Heavenly Grounds today advertising a ~holiday party~ There's festive decorations with mulled wine, hot toddies, spiked egg nog. You name it, it's there to get you plastered.

And I guess there's cookies and fruit cake and stuff too, but who needs food when there's drinking?]

Comments

[ribblerouser]

Mmm. [leans in and nuzzles him briefly]

I want to know more about you. But I know that can sound, uh. Well. Intimidating?

[divasterous]

Ugh . . .

[he sighs softly, lightly catching Mikk's lips in a kiss]

My perspective is just all skewed.

[ribblerouser]

Skewed? [relaxes a little more as soon as he gets that smooch]

[divasterous]

Very . . . um, wrapped up in myself. Now that I'm forced out of that situation . . .

[ribblerouser]

Then?

[divasterous]

I just feel at loose ends, having to just . . . make myself. Be myself.

[ribblerouser]

I'm liking yourself, if that's any consolation.

[divasterous]

I'm liking the person I am when I'm with you.

[ribblerouser]

Well. We can all be something different around different people. That's still us.

[divasterous]

Mm. I'm not unhappy, just trying to put things together. Who do I want to become, what do I need to do? I feel like this must be a bit easier for most people.

[ribblerouser]

[considers that] I wouldn't know, but you're probably right.

[divasterous]

[reaches up to brush at Mikk's bangs with gloved fingers]

Wouldn't know?

[ribblerouser]

How it is for most people, I mean. [leans into that touch] I'm actually a very impulsive person.

[divasterous]

Hmmmm, I'd believe that.

[ribblerouser]

See, you know me so well already.

[divasterous]

[laughs a little, shyly]

I don't think so. I don't know me or you, I'm just winging it.

[ribblerouser]

Life's interpretive.

[divasterous]

I suppose it is.

[curling up against his side]

[ribblerouser]

Unless you're enlightened, at which point I imagine things are significant on their own in the great scheme of things. But for the rest of us, it's figuring out things as we go and bringing our own significance and understanding.

[divasterous]

A big mess.

[ribblerouser]

Right, that. But it's good.

[divasterous]

How is it good?

[curious, not challenging]

[ribblerouser]

Hmm... [considers how to put it into words for a few moments] I'd rather be a mess than see everything from the outside and not be involved in it.

[divasterous]

. . .

[shudders hard, closing his eyes]

Nnh.

[ribblerouser]

Ah. I'm sorry, was that...? Do you want to talk about it?